| Last day in A-town. Spent yesterday saying goodbye to Garrett, Kevin, and Jareth. Today, IMed Seth and called Leslie. Spending tonight with Kathryn.
I couldn't sleep last night. Maybe this is all just a bad idea. |
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| I've got almost everything I need, it looks like. So, here's pretty much what I have left to do.
Monday--Deposit last three paychecks, buy desk lamp.
Tuesday--Last trip to the dentist before leaving.
Thursday--Haircut.
Saturday--Last party with Kevin, Seth, Jareth and Garrett
Whenever possible I want to go down to the school and see Jareth so we can finish writing our song. I also need to talk to Mrs. Burris about my English paper, and I need to work on my two audition pieces. I don't know when I'm packing up the stuff that needs to be shipped, or when I'm filling out that college paperwork, but I know I'll get around to it. Aside from that, I don't have too much on my plate unless I can get hold of Leslie sometime before I leave. |
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| God. I said I would be fine with it but I was wrong. A week in Hawaii and I come back feeling sick to my stomach. I missed Kathryn so ridiculously much while I was gone. I don't care if it sounds cliche and stupid to say in high school, I love her. She's the first functional relationship I've had, and I don't understand why I have to leave. I can't imagine going that long without being able to see her and I don't want to. I only wanted to go to this school to get into college, but I don't even want to go to college, so what's the point. I just want this summer to go on so I can keep having fun. I don't want to leave her. I don't want to leave. I haven't broken down this badly since the last time I talked to my dad. I only have 25 days and it's not enough. I want to go back. I want to stay with her. |
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| I leave in thirty days. Fucking woo hoo. |
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| It doesn't seem to have been a great summer so far for too many people. Hopefully everything will get sorted out not too long after I get back to the mainland. Nothing sucks more than a friend in a tight spot that you can't help them out of. And I seem to have a lot of friends stuck between Scylla and Caribdis right now. |
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